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I haven't been keeping up on my blog for quite a while.  I just felt like it was the right time to publish another post.  There has been a lot of negative things going on lately, and I need to vent.  There has been problems with my children, with work, and with personal things.  I have been trying to cope with all of this, but sometimes it seems that I am drowning.  I feel like I am in the middle of an ocean of trouble, floating on a slowly deflating raft, and there is no one around to help.  My lifelines are few and they seem fragile, like a small puff of wind could break them as easily as a cobweb is broken by a duster.  However, I have found a lifeline that was always there, even if I denied it, and this one is as strong as steel and as comforting as a warm blanket.  I didn't see it until it was almost too late, but now, even though I still feel as though I am drowning, I have more hope for the outcome of this situation.  It really is an amazing feeling to learn that God really IS there.  After so long with no hope, after such a long time pretending to have faith and know God, it truly is a feeling of freedom, peace and love.  Amazing is the only way to describe it.